It is strange how one looses friendships over honesty!!
I went to visit a friend one day, well we met up for coffee in a little coffee shop in Blackheath. She was my ex-employer and we were good friends.
The conversation started with how are you doing these days and what has been happening in your life. So I told her how I am doing and what has been happening in my life. Much to her surprise and amazement she was a bit shocked about the revelation that I was HIV+!!Well that just killed the conversation and also the friendship.
People are so close minded and are so scared off people with HIV. They are scared of so many things and that they may catch the disease. How uninformed the masses are out there. Like Tanya use to say "it is a disease / virus, call it what you want, it is what you have not who you are". How can people be so stupid and small minded.
I lost a couple of friends because I was honest about my health and my state of mind.
Needless to say I have gain alot of new friends who have been supportive all the way and I rather cherise those friendships than go looking for old friends who have decided to write me off because of what I had.
Don't live with regret. Live with love and compassion to those who are uninformed and hope to God that they will come around eventually and realise the error of their ways. And the best part of it is they call themselves Christians. How glad am I that I have decided to denounce christianity and live my life as a Pagan, who lives close to mother earth and all her guardians. I am much better off living the life I am living now than when I called myself a christian.
Thursday 21 April 2011
Wednesday 20 April 2011
What this has taught ME!!
A couple of weeks ago I have come to the realisation that there was a reason that I had to live with the knowledge that I was diagnosed as HIV+ for 8 years.
Since I did my test in February 2011 and my GP Dr Marais has informed me that I am not positive and that there is no trace of the virus a whole new world has opened up to me. Everything I feared in the last 8 years of my life has fallen away and so many opportunities has presented themselves to me and I am taking it with both hands (no I am not running with it) I am carrying it very carefully and nurturing it to see what is going to come from it.
Thus far, I have decided to do two tattoos before my 40th birthday which by the way is 3 months away, whereafter the next step has reared its head out of the blue. I am starting my own business and are super excited to do this. With the support of my lovely wife and family I look forward what this challenge is going to bring.
So you are asking yourself what do I mean what has this experience taught me? Well let me tell you!! It has taught me the following things:-
1. To be humble;
2. To look forward to each and everyday;
3. To have no regrets;
4. To live life as if today will be my last day on this beautiful planet of ours;
5. To be grateful for my new lease on life;
6. To be more centered with my ownself;
7. To take nothing for granted;
8. To grab hold of every opportunity that comes my way;
9. To tell the people that are in my life how grateful I am that they are in my life;
10. To tell my loved ones everyday that I love them, does not matter what they have or what I might think they have done to me;
11. To be compassionate with those that I know who are HIV+ and does not look forward to each and everyday as their day is just another day to stay alive.
12. To not go back in the past and try and understand why this has happened to me;
13. To forget and forgive those who has made a mistake;
14. To never bear a grudge against anybody;
Yes the list is endless but these are the ones I can think of now.
It is interesting because I see living my life with new eyes and with a new passion to make a success of my life and to provide for the one that I love with my whole heart.
Honeybun, you mean the world to me and without your love and support the last three years that we have been together I would have never been able to be so positive about our life together. You are my true love and I will love you forever.
To Rick, Brenda and Dr Leslie Pleass, thank you for your constant support and chiropractic care. You all are blessed with talent that no one can describe.
Since I did my test in February 2011 and my GP Dr Marais has informed me that I am not positive and that there is no trace of the virus a whole new world has opened up to me. Everything I feared in the last 8 years of my life has fallen away and so many opportunities has presented themselves to me and I am taking it with both hands (no I am not running with it) I am carrying it very carefully and nurturing it to see what is going to come from it.
Thus far, I have decided to do two tattoos before my 40th birthday which by the way is 3 months away, whereafter the next step has reared its head out of the blue. I am starting my own business and are super excited to do this. With the support of my lovely wife and family I look forward what this challenge is going to bring.
So you are asking yourself what do I mean what has this experience taught me? Well let me tell you!! It has taught me the following things:-
1. To be humble;
2. To look forward to each and everyday;
3. To have no regrets;
4. To live life as if today will be my last day on this beautiful planet of ours;
5. To be grateful for my new lease on life;
6. To be more centered with my ownself;
7. To take nothing for granted;
8. To grab hold of every opportunity that comes my way;
9. To tell the people that are in my life how grateful I am that they are in my life;
10. To tell my loved ones everyday that I love them, does not matter what they have or what I might think they have done to me;
11. To be compassionate with those that I know who are HIV+ and does not look forward to each and everyday as their day is just another day to stay alive.
12. To not go back in the past and try and understand why this has happened to me;
13. To forget and forgive those who has made a mistake;
14. To never bear a grudge against anybody;
Yes the list is endless but these are the ones I can think of now.
It is interesting because I see living my life with new eyes and with a new passion to make a success of my life and to provide for the one that I love with my whole heart.
Honeybun, you mean the world to me and without your love and support the last three years that we have been together I would have never been able to be so positive about our life together. You are my true love and I will love you forever.
To Rick, Brenda and Dr Leslie Pleass, thank you for your constant support and chiropractic care. You all are blessed with talent that no one can describe.
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